Posted by Daisym on March 5, 2007, at 14:01:13
In reply to have I ever wondered if I was ****trigger*****, posted by Llurpsie_Noodle on March 5, 2007, at 11:56:41
Hang on to yourself. Feel your feet on the ground and butt in the chair. Don't float too far away without a safety net.
What you feel is common. It is a question that floats up for lots of people who feel as bad as you've been feeling. Because we want a SERIOUS reason to feel this bad and we don't easily give ourselves permission to label what we do know as "bad enough." That doesn't mean you weren't sexually abused. If you were, you are likely to "know" before you "remember." Some people hang on to their memories in a clear way, other people remember in their bodies and other people know but without details.
When I started to get my memories back, I'd let the younger parts write to me. I'd write a question on the page and then let myself try to answer it. It was a painful process. Sometimes things would drop in and other times there would be an overload of fear - not wanting to know.
Be careful with what you are reading or lists that you might be checking. That stuff can apply to many, many things. I often tell my therapist that I doubt myself and all these stories and all these tears. He says he doesn't doubt me, but he wishes with me that it wasn't true.
I hope it isn't true for you either. But if it is, I'm here to support if you want or need it. I'm a few steps ahead on this journey, for whatever that's worth.
Hugs from me,
Daisy
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