Posted by wishingstar on February 11, 2007, at 18:11:29
In reply to Re: mmmm seroquel :), posted by muffled on February 11, 2007, at 17:27:49
I took 25mg last night. To be honest, it was as much of an attempt to just drug myself into a happier daze as it was a test to see how I'd react (make sure I didnt get violently ill, who knows) in case I ever wanted to overdose on it later. I'm not saying I'm doing to OD on it. But knowing its there is a safety blanket I guess. But I had to see how I'd react to it before it felt "safe" in that sense. Before it felt comforting to have. I know that probably doesnt make sense.
I start my job tomorrow so I'm hoping keeping busy with that will help. I think it will. At least I'll be too busy to obsess over things. Looking forward to seeing Ginny on Thurs. It's not that long.. I'll make it. I can feel her there, and I know she cares, so I can make it. She was checking her messages twice a day this weekend to see if I called. I guess she probably does that every weekend anyway, but its still nice knowing shes thinking of me. She told me about 2 weeks ago that she knows I dont have any hope right now so shes going to hold on to it for me. So I'm trying to hold on to her and trust her with that.
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