Posted by peddidle on February 2, 2007, at 22:50:03
In reply to Re: Why can't I talk? (long...what else is new?), posted by frida on February 1, 2007, at 21:43:35
> I do it all the time too and it has taken me years...and I still can't talk openly needing it so badly. It's so painful to leave session because it all comes to me, all the things I wish I had said. I understand...it's so difficult. To need to talk and want to talk so badly and then something in you doesn't let you...
**Wow, you have captured the feeling so well! That's how I feel...I walk in there thinking "OK, I'm going to say this, this, and this" Then something happens between my brain and my mouth, and nothing comes out. Then I leave and end up thinking "Ugh! I can't believe I didn't (or forgot to) tell her that!"
> There are some things that help...
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> I do email her and write letters to her. It helps me to at least tell her or let her know something..and then it makes it easier to say something (though I struggle with it and she's been really frustrated a lot of times). She makes jokes too...I've tried a lot of things, writing, making a tape for her, even recording a video, drawing...
> Sometimes she has read letters in our session..and sometimes I've tried to read them aloud.
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> Maybe you can give it some thought and maybe you can write or find another way to communicate until you can find your voice..
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> it takes time, trust and patience...
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> Frida**I've been contemplating bringing my yearbook to my next appointment. I don't know why, but for some reason, I want her to see it. She knows it's going to be a hard day for me, so to make it seem less strange and random, I can tell her that I just felt like I needed to have it with me.
Maybe I'll give emailing her a try. Just once. Maybe. I've only emailed her about serious stuff a couple of times, and it was over the summer, so I knew I wouldn't be seeing her for several weeks or months.
Thank you so much for your help, Frida.
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