Posted by muffled on January 11, 2007, at 15:34:41
In reply to Tonight - trigger (suicide), posted by Daisym on January 11, 2007, at 1:31:16
Hope your T appt goes OK for you.
Sometimes T appt do, sometimes they don't, and I just don't know why myself. I bet my T don't know either.
Your in a hole Daisy, and with all the crap going on it feels like your going deeper, and maybe you are. But that doesn't mean you can't get out.
Its hard, the hole is hard, cuz you can't see the way out, but there is a way. And the way may be hard, really hard at times, but you can make it. You have made it thru so much. And the higher you get out of the hole, the brighter it gets. It gets easier to see. And then there's a hint of exitement, moments of thinking its really gonna be OK. And then you start peeking out and OMG it can be SO amazing. All this cool stuff you just COULD NOT SEE. It was there, but you couldn't see it. Moments where you just sit and stare in dumbfounded WONDER at the amazingness of something. And while having been in the hole is a nightmare noone would ever choose, it does have its gifts. We who have been to hell can squeeze SO much beauty and wonder and appreciation out of a single moment......I dunno if ANYthing is worth having been to hell, but its a good good gift. One that those who have never been to hell will never EVER get. Its a gift JUST for us who have survived.
So hold on Daisy, let others help where they can. Let big Daisy comfort little Daisy. If your T can help, let him. If group can help, keep trying. Babble to us. You are special to us here Daisy too.
Your doing so good, working so hard.
If your little Daisy wants to talk to my ikid, shes actually a pretty cool kid, she could babblemail her(her name is IKid. Or little Daisy could talk to the mommy me. Or you can talk to me, etc.(LOL! One good thing bout being split, lotsa people to talk to?!?!)
Hang on Daisy, this is a hard time, but you will learn and grow, and better times are ahead.
I'm babbling, sorry, I just would like to make you feel even a teensy bit better somehow.
Take care,
Muffled
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