Posted by orchid on April 20, 2006, at 13:57:46
In reply to Honey, I scared the shrink... (***trigger***), posted by Tamar on April 20, 2006, at 9:41:56
((Tamar))
Please say a strict no to self-injury.
I think it is fairly likely that your therapist is intimidated of you. I think you have a very high intelligence, and insight, and as I have said before, you yourself could have been an excellent therapist or have written even books on the subject.
That is probably what is making your T intimidated - he probably thinks his insights or advices are not enough for you.
Maybe you should tell him upfront, that you really have excellent insights into yourself, and that you have been doing this tremendous job of helping out people here in this board, and as a result, that you do know lot of things about therapy and self etc. That will set the platform for your T to treat you. Tell him, that logically knowing things even about emotions is different from emotionally feeling better and realising the logistical knowledge.
It sounds your situation at home is very hard to take now. I think you are doing the right thing by leaving and going someplace else. But I wouldn't want you staying alone anywhere. Is there anyone's place you can go and stay for a while?
I think your husband is stressed out because of your cutting. And I think that is what is making him get defensive and shouting. For men, it is incomprehensible to perhaps understand things like cutting. He probably takes it on himself, and thinks you are cutting yourself as a means of hurting him or you are expressing your unhappiness with him by cutting yourself. In any case, he should be able to handle it more maturely instead of shouting at you. That is only making it worse. Maybe you can go to your marriage counsellor and ask her to help?
I think if you stop cutting, he might probably become little less defensive.
But in the meanwhile, do you have your parents or others nearby to whom you could go and stay? Maybe you can even take the kids with you and go on a holiday to your parents house for a few days. Is that possible? I don't want you staying all by yourself when you are hurting. Please stay in the safe eyes of others who care about you.
And please seek out help here.Take Care
Orchid
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