Posted by B2chica on November 17, 2005, at 10:10:57
In reply to (((((B2))))))), posted by muffled on November 17, 2005, at 10:00:20
muffled i can barely see the keyboard cuz of the tears.
when i see other little kids about 8 or so i'm afraid of them and for them. i immediately turn into super cop on the look out for predators. i just can't seem to apply those thoughts to me. to other kids yes, but i should have done So much. she was weak and caved. she stupidly loved her brother no matter what he had her do. no matter if it hurt or not, she kept going back for more. i know that's what my mother would tell me. that 'why didn't i stop it', it was my fault for letting it happen more than once. once she could forgive, more than that it was my fault. i got what i deserved she always said. she also said i always love the attention (when she'd hit me) that i wanted it to happen. i apply that to that stupid little girl also.i was so confused and scared. but SHE was just stupid.
i need to be held. (((((muffled))))
tears.
b2c.
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