Posted by kerria on November 14, 2005, at 12:36:35
In reply to Re: In therapy- whose job is it to get you better? » kerria, posted by Dinah on November 14, 2005, at 10:45:33
i don't know if i've improved. The main crisis right now is that parts act out and do and say things that i don't agree with- getting me in all kinds of problems in my relationships, especially with h.
There's so much separation between parts- i don't feel that same or share memory with the part that goes to work. The effect this has in my day to day life is so difficult for me. It feels like i don't belong anywhere.i don't depend on T or miss him. It's not independence from T that i mean by getting better. It's ability to feel oneness and connection with my parts.
It's like that with me also- whenever T is pushing i pull back. i wish there were a way to get more connected and have more control over what i do. Also i feel so hurt and little most of the time, that i can't manage and everything is falling apart. Now i'm ok but can become so afraid, as a child on her own would be. i'm not able to think 'grown up.' It's so hard to be like this. How can i work on changing?
Thanks so much for reading and any input,
kerria
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