Posted by alexandra_k on August 24, 2005, at 15:09:43
In reply to Re: Complete Reversal » alexandra_k, posted by cricket on August 24, 2005, at 11:52:34
> Most people are trying to trust their therapist not to abandon them. And I understand that. But abandonment is so familiar to me it feels almost comfortable.
maybe... it seems so inevitable that you just feel numb?
> But my issue is more trusting him enough to let him care a tiny bit. That is really hard for me to do.
> Why? Why do most people long for caring, and I fear it more than anything else?
> I mean I'm okay with caring about people. I really do care about my husband, my son, some of the people I work with, even my therapist. But I'm not okay with any of those people caring about me :-(i'm not sure... maybe if they care about you... then it might be harder to feel detached / numb. then they might have more power to hurt you. especially if / when they leave.
> Except for Babblers. That's strange but I can take the care I get here and it even makes me feel better. Maybe because I know that you can all ignore me anytime you want, you don't have to look at me.yeah. and maybe... its because you can ignore us if you want to too.
> I don't know.me neither...
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