Posted by Poet on July 17, 2005, at 13:10:33
In reply to me again - next session in 2 days, posted by Shortelise on July 16, 2005, at 23:19:31
Hi ShortE,
It sounds to me like your T has some self esteem issues, but he'd probably be offended if you told him that.
I think you have a right to be confused. You aren't supposed to hide feelings in therapy, yet, your therapist seems to expect an apology for you expressing yours.
I totally understand the finking shame of asking for help, especially after you walked out. You're conflicted. It's like me and meds, and pdocs talking to my T. I don't want their help, but maybe I need their help.
> I also feel like saying, hey, it's ok, I can go now, and I'll be ok. But then, I have this feeling in my body, this really hard to stand feeling, like sadness, but like impotence too. Helplessness. Frustration. Capitulation.
I think you should tell him what you wrote above. It's what you are feeling. It's why you think you need to see him again.
I wouldn't bring up his being offended about what you said to him, unless he does, which unfortunately he probably will. Maybe you can just say that you were angry and couldn't keep it inside any longer.
I think that Dinah is right that your old lover and family should stay at a hotel. You're under enough stress with seeing your T again without adding the stress of houseguests. You'll still be able to spend time with them, but not have to worry about having them stay with you.
Let us know how it goes with your T. I'll keep my fingers crossed.
Poet
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