Posted by 10derHeart on May 26, 2005, at 0:23:56
In reply to Re: There Was One Thing Said I Didn't Like At All... » 10derHeart, posted by Damos on May 25, 2005, at 17:17:02
Aww..you are always popping in at just the right times.
Don't worry - I read all over, I know you are possibly going through scary stuff IRL. I'm praying for an outcome to that situation for you that will perhaps turn into something wonderful you didn't expect....
As for me and this post...didn't mean to sound like it killed me or anything. Things with a T. are just so magnified sometimes. And we really are fighting for this relationship, and even though that's uncomfortable, I know it's important.
Our styles are a bit different emotionally, although with cognitive stuff, we are a lot alike. We genuinely like each other, I think, based on our joking and mutual interests we chat about at the beginning and end of sessions.
He takes his responsibilities toward clients very seriously. Just not sure he's found the way to that place where we're both looking forward together to try to help me feel better and have a more fulfilled life - he's still floundering some. Trying to "map me out" almost - as to what I truly need from him. Which techniques to dump, which to use more, where my tender places really are (I don't always tell...) when to just talk to me and try not to *use* anything he's learned about being therapeutic.
I see this is no simple process for either of us. I present as super high-functioning many times when he sees me, even when fairly depressed, so this is something he's also now uncovering. I see progress in him (I know that's backwards - but I do...) I'm willing to wait. And in the meantime educate him, if I can.
I'll post all about the reason behind his "termination remark " tomorrow. Today he explained how it was all a hugely misunderstood joke. On a subject he vows never to joke about again. I believe him...but, it's still a little muddled and shaky.
You are lovely to come over here and try to support me - over something really, that's pretty trivial..... Thanks for being *you*, Damos.
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