Posted by shrinking violet on May 17, 2005, at 19:41:10
In reply to I Don't Think So..., posted by Poet on May 17, 2005, at 18:57:16
Thank you everyone. I wish I had the energy to respond to everyone individually, but right now I don't, I'm sorry.
I really need my T right now. I can't do this without her, it's all too much, I don't know which way to turn. I need to know she's there, I need her to be able to reassure me and ground me, I need her to sit with me and tell me it's okay. I want to contact her so badly and beg her to please help me, please. Which is something I was never able to ask her before, when I should have. And now....maybe it's too late.
And it isn't fair. This is all happening at once...the changes, the losses, the decisions.....and on top of losing my T, having it end the way it did with her, feeling like there are so many things still unresolved and up in the air, and being cut off from her after almost 2 years of being in constant contact and having her there.....it's too much. I can't handle it. I feel like I'm coming apart.
A very sad and alone and unsure,
sv
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