Posted by Tamar on May 16, 2005, at 14:37:15
In reply to i overestimated my worth, posted by shrinking violet on May 16, 2005, at 13:23:02
> I also told my psych my desire to do this for my T (ahem, "ex" T). She seemed touched, said my T would be "dancing in her heart" and she reiterated my T's offer to help me with this IP thing if I wanted to involve her (not sure I do....I do, but, I don't want to bother her either. She's paid her dues with me, maybe best to leave her in peace). But then she said that she had lunch with my T on Friday afternoon (which was the last session with my T), and my psych made it sound like my T was fine, that she showed her the gifts I brought her, etc. So, I'm thinking, "Gee, my T doesn't miss me at all. She isn't broken up in the least bit that she'll never see me again. And she must feel okay about everything, so, no need to do anything for her now." Not that I want my T to feel badly, or like she failed me, or anything, but.....Am I the only one of the two of us who thinks the last session wasn't at all what it should have been given the intensity and depth of our work together? Am I the only one who questions what the hell the past couple of years with her have been *for* other than to make everything worse for me emotionally? Am I the only one who deeply misses the other?Well if your T would be 'dancing in her heart' at the prospect of your taking this action, then she obviously cares about you. And she showed the psych the gifts you gave her, so she must value them.
Did she say anything to you about how she felt about the fact that your work together was ending? I'm sure after all this time she will miss you.
And I'm glad you found the cat toy.
Keep exercising that inner strength.
Tamar
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