Posted by messadivoce on April 2, 2005, at 20:08:25
In reply to Re: Internalizing » messadivoce, posted by Dinah on April 1, 2005, at 18:43:57
Yes Dinah, you are right, I think. I have a lot of gratitude I feel, and the most reasonable parts of me know that he didn't try to hurt me. But I'm angry with him anyway.
He didn't promise me "forever therapy" and even if he could have, I don't know if he would've. He told me near the end of therapy that I didn't really need him anymore. Maybe that was just his wishful thinking. Maybe I took that to mean he was trying to loosen my attachment to him.
I just had this unreasonable expectation that because he cared, that he would always care. I mean, where do I get off thinking that, right? I did feel like I was about 5 years old a lot of the time. When I said goodbye to him the last time I wanted to just cry, "don't leave me!"
So you and I are about the same psychological age when it comes to attachments...
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