Posted by Tamar on March 11, 2005, at 19:15:08
In reply to therapy ending - my heart breaks, posted by Shortelise on March 10, 2005, at 23:55:22
I'm in a similar situation - my final appointment with my T is now less than a week away. I feel for you.
> Another part of me wants to be the rational, gracious woman I know I can be, and see him a few more times, weep copiously, and go on my merry way.
Is that the person he sees when he thinks of you leaving therapy? A rational, gracious woman? That's a tribute to both of you.
> I feel I did it all wrong, that if I were younger, prettier, kinder, thinner, more intelligent, better ... he would not send me away.I know. I feel the same way. If only I were indispensable, my T wouldn't be able to let me go. He'd keep me in therapy for the rest of my life. Of course, what I actually desire is his friendship and love...
Also, I'm sure you're young enough, pretty enough, kind, thin, intelligent and good enough for your T. It's because you are valuable to him that he wants what is best for you, even if that means letting you go.
> I am so so sad. I have cried so much today my head aches. My husband called and left him a message to please call, and he never called back. More betrayal.Have you called him yourself? Would that make a difference?
> So, if I'm lucky, I'll see him two or three more times in the next couple of months. And then this part of my life will be over. I feel like an orphan. And I so want to hate him.
>
The word orphan strikes a chord with me. It's like a bereavement, isn't it? You might know it's coming and you might be able to prepare for it, but it's still a huge loss.I hope he calls you back.
Tamar
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