Posted by 10derHeart on March 11, 2005, at 1:48:44
In reply to therapy ending - my heart breaks, posted by Shortelise on March 10, 2005, at 23:55:22
Oh dear, (((ShortE))))
This was so eloquent and real. No one who's terminated with a therapist they cared for, or (as with daisym, perhaps) even fearing the imagined loss (Daisy, you have NOTHING to fear, your T. isn't going anywhere!), could read this and not be moved, I don't think. I wish I could do something, anything.
I can only say I do so know about the tears and feeling sick and all of it. All of it and more. I am past maybe 80% of it now, but only by maybe 2 months. It's fresh enough that it all comes right back.
<<Yet I know that he is right, it's time, and why can't I let these old feelings go...>>
Because you're human. Because they're natural? Because it's not yet time? I know - it just s@*ks anyway, doesn't it?
I can't top what Daisy suggested. But if you ever want to vent or anything, I'm usually here. You can Babblemail me, too. I know you don't know me, but I feel I *know* you a tiny bit through your wonderful posts. This is a subject I can help share the burden of with others. I don't shy away, because this is one of the worst, hardest, and often most impossible to explain in all its depth to IRL folks. We really need each other on this one, and I've found to my surprise I am strong enough to read and reply.
ShortE, you'll still see him some more. No, it won't be the same, and the reality of it all will always be there. But hang onto the fact he IS still there. It'll be a HUGE change, but not complete devastation.
It only feels exactly like it now. Hang on. We're here and we DO know. --10derheart
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