Posted by daisym on December 12, 2004, at 16:05:41
In reply to i need help (poss. ***trigger***), posted by crushedout on December 12, 2004, at 12:37:23
Crushed,
You need to tell your new therapist you feel this way. Call and leave a message. I'm glad you are with someone and will be with family. You can stay quiet, just stay with people to keep yourself safe.
Checking out is seductive. It creeps into your thoughts like a rational way to end all the pain and the suffering. But it is distorted reality.
I've been struggling myself with these thoughts again this week and last. I've been honest with my therapist about it. He reminds me that it can't get better if I check out. And we go through the list again of who needs me to keep trying.
I'm asking you to make your own list. What are your dreams? What would you miss? Who would miss you the most?
Take it minute by minute and then hour by hour. You will work up to day by day. It won't hurt this bad forever. And I would miss you.
Hugs from me.
poster:daisym
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