Posted by mattw84 on October 6, 2004, at 0:38:29
In reply to Re: The Closet - Can I open it??HELP!! Anyone??PlzRd! » mattw84, posted by shortelise on October 3, 2004, at 15:14:26
The pdoc and I have been working thru social phobia the past few sessions. I brought up my recent encounters with the cousin and the awkwardness of said situations. That was as far as I made it... the question that followed that intro was: "Why do you feel more awkward around this member of your family?" I hesitated and said, "I am not quite sure I am ready to discuss that." Thusly the subject was dropped. Unfortunate she didn't push the subject, I probably would have spilled it. She made note of that and I am sure it will be brought up again... but it was very obvious no doubt how uncomfortable the subject makes me.
Anyone else had this "building" up of courage to discuss self-inflicting guilt type issues? My mother recently divulged to me some issues from her childhood that she has not even discussed with my father! I am quite similar to my mother emotionally so hopefully her strength with rub off on me; I agree with everyone in that it is definately in my best interest to "get it off my chest." I can visualize the moment and almost *feel* the complacency that would ensue.. wish I could just settle for that :)
The only other option I have considered is to again exclude my cousin from my life, and repress the memories and emotions and what not again... Though that seems rather selfish and I am guessing wouldn't work in the long run. Who knows, thanks for the advice everyone! I have written down some of the issues at hand, only to send them through the shredder moments later. I have faith in myself though, I can work through this. I much appreciate everyone's advice, I hope that I may return the favor to the community in the future!
Matt
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