Posted by Shadowplayers721 on July 28, 2004, at 21:56:09
In reply to Re: Being treated for a dissociative disorder » Shadowplayers721, posted by Pfinstegg on July 28, 2004, at 19:31:30
I have said the same thing over and over in t and at home about "losing it". The not being able to write is a HUGE problem. I can type, but hardly write. I never could in college write a paper. I could type one in a flash. It was like it by passed a function. Reading is another HUGE problem. I read something, but where does it go. In college, I read something 3-5X and still didn't know if it would come back in one piece mentally.
I can't say that I was ever high functioning. I always had problems. However, now, people are really noticing it. I can't always control how my voice will say things. Use to it would be more discrete. Not now. I feel like I fell apart. I thought I had a break down.
Yep, I had t's in the past say that I looked together with the exception of the shaking. I went to a doc today for a test and I felt like I wasn't really there. I don't mean spacing out. It was weird. It was like I wasn't paying attention to what he was saying. He kept trying to get my attention. Later, I thought what was that all about. I can't always predict how will respond to things. I do feel like I have open a closet door jammed full of toys and I can't jam them back in anymore.
The voices are louder and the names are constantly jumping out in my mind.
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