Posted by Shadowplayers721 on July 28, 2004, at 18:55:31
In reply to Being treated for a dissociative disorder, posted by Pfinstegg on July 28, 2004, at 18:16:49
Wow! You are in the midst of doing some powerful work. I have been dx with DID/MPD years ago. I never wanted to face up to it, but the symptoms have always been there. They were there since childhood.
I think I know what you are talking about with the grief. I was in the t's office yesterday telling her that I feel like a broken toy. There is NO WAY that I could have gotten through brutal abuse without dissociation. It's just not possible. I felt like a 10 pound weight was on my head. The sadness is just overwhelming.
Therapy is difficult for me these days, because at times I am unable to speak. Something totally different will come out of my mouth or I will not be able to say words or read things right. It feels like I had a stroke.
You must have a great relationship with the analyst for you to be able to get to this point. That's awesome for you. It's terribly hard work emotionaly.
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