Posted by vwoolf on July 28, 2004, at 14:20:02
In reply to Re: Confused GardenerGirl, posted by vwoolf on July 28, 2004, at 2:27:32
My session went well this morning – really well actually. I took all the posts (mine as well as yours, I hope you don’t mind) and we slowly went through them. I think that I had worked through a lot of my diffidence towards my T through discussing it with you, so that we were able to talk through things, even trust issues, calmly and trustingly. It was quite amazing for me. Thanks so much for all your support, because it has made such a difference. So many of your comments were really pertinent, and we discussed them in detail. I am not sure that I have resolved all my difficulties around trust, and I am sure they will raise their ugly heads again, but for today at least they went away, and that is major progress. I am seeing my therapist again tomorrow and feel hopeful that I will manage to keep it up that long. After that we’ll see.
I posted further down about some insights that I have had recently. I feel that I have actually made a huge step here, in choosing to stay in therapy with my T. If I look back at my life, I have always chosen to repeat the incest pattern as the only one that would give me relief from the aching pain of abandonment. This time, although with huge problems of trust, I am trying to change the pattern. I hope it will work. I think the issue of trust is the ‘BIG’ one that will make or break my attempt. Please hold thumbs for me.
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