Posted by Racer on June 28, 2004, at 22:54:43
In reply to Re: Questions, posted by Cricket on June 28, 2004, at 19:32:01
Welcome, Cricket.
While I'm hardly the poster child for effective recovery from depression, I can safely say that I *am* a success story for the ability of therapy to help you recover something you never had. The best news for you is this: just before the "breakthrough" for me, I was feeling that same sort of nothingness you're describing. All of my defenses were -- altered, not gone, just different and it felt as if I'd never be able to survive. Those defenses were altered enough that I finally had to experience my own emotions -- I could no longer protect myself from them. It was hard.
A big part of it for me was grieving for what I never got as a child. I, too, thought that I could never "re-cover" what had never been there. I can't tell you what happened, but I can tell you it was good. Yeah, sure, my childhood was lousy in a lot of ways, but now I can appreciate the ways in which it wasn't lousy. I guess I finally "got over" it -- but it took a while to do so, and it required working with a good therapist.
Best luck to you, Cricket, and welcome.
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