Posted by DaisyM on December 12, 2003, at 15:04:25
In reply to Re: Karen's rant (this n's good), posted by Karen_kay on December 12, 2003, at 10:58:39
Wow, Karen that was a powerful dream! Did it feel familiar, or was there fear? I've had dreams about my dad crying too...I think I want him to be sorry. Remember that dreams are symbolic so they can be your biggest fears, not what actually happened. Then again...
I try to take tours in my head of the houses we lived in when I was a kid. It helps me remember stuff. I have been actively searching for a memory of the "first time" but it is hiding, maybe lost forever. Which is weird because I have such clear memories of other times, ones I've always had...consciously ignored with the self-talk of "it is in the past and doesn't matter anymore." Of course, it does...
Sounds like you are getting close to another memory. Smells and sounds are huge triggers for these things. Did your dad wear after-shave? Can you remember what it smelled like?
I think the holidays make all this even harder. Too much remembering about the past and too much family. I want to boycott this year but I have kids. Bah humbug.
poster:DaisyM
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