Posted by NThompson on June 25, 2003, at 20:06:03
In reply to Re: For Dinah » NThompson, posted by Dinah on June 25, 2003, at 5:28:59
Dinah,
I haven't been diagnosed with OCD, but I pick at myself all the time. This will sound gross, but I will pick at zits, blemishes, skin peeling from a sunburn and anything else I can find to pick at. I will run my fingers over my skin not knowing I am doing it and will actually search for something to pick.So, What OCD do you have? I have always considered mine as a "nervous habbit" and anxiety. Like I said I haven't been diagnosed, however, I can't stop doing it. OBSESSIVELY DOING IT.
Yes, there is nothing sadder than the sound of strong metal sliceing into thin plastic. You could do what I did! I just didn't pay anything important and when out looking for comfort. Something to make me feel better. Food (dining and grocery store), I have a Costco and Sam's Club card, DVD movies, going out drinking with friends, things for the kids, gifts for my husband and any other little knick-knacks I could find that made me feel good at the time. Didn't buy clothes though! I hate looking in the mirror, so that sucked. It made me even more depressed. So I stopped looking for clothes. And after that great budget plan, you can receive a ton of notices saying that you are in foreclosure, your truck is being repoed, the IRS is going to come after you if you don't send taxes in from 2001, and your water, electricity and cable are all being turned off! Oh, lets not forget that the garbage company is putting a lien against your house for an unpaid account!! And still after looking at this, you buy more movies to escape you crappy life that you just created for yourself, wishing to escape in any way possible and realizing that everything you do turns crappy. Everything from your weight to how lazy you are to how you can't even get up and clean the house! How you cry for absolutely no reason at all. Knowing you can't answer the phone because your afraid to talk to other people and just want to stay inside where you feel safe. And how you wish that just once you can take one breathe of air not feeling guilty about living.
I'm sorry I guess I'm not feeling all that well today. I think I'm gonna go now, sorry Dinah.
NThompson
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