Posted by Vintagemama on August 26, 2006, at 20:36:20
In reply to Re: Coming to terms/grieving losses related to illness, posted by finelinebob on August 26, 2006, at 17:08:39
Thanks so much for replying...
The September 11 reference is just the date that my manager stated that the "employment decision would have to be made". The only significance is the irony of it.
I'm going to contact Social Security and see what happens... unfortunately the Employee Assistance people at the medical center where I work already said that there is nothing legally I can do about the job situation. After the 12-week FMLA leave I took, when first this happened, it was the end of their obligation to retain me.
There is a NAMI group in town that I am going to contact. Don't know of anyone else.
Meanwhile, the doc put me on a longer-lasting tranq and it is helping somewhat. I sure hope the Parnate works when I can begin taking it (next week I see the doctor). Some days are worse than others, naturally. This morning was brutal. I paced, cried, listened to the song "Mad World" until my hubby was quite worried, and rightfully so, babbled about being locked up, begged him to call the doctor on Monday if I am still having these "attacks" to ask for ANYTHING that will help.
The anger was also there. "I DON'T DESERVE TO BE FIRED!!!! I WAS AN EXCELLENT EMPLOYEE BEFORE I BECAME ILL AND THE PEOPLE I WORKED WITH ALL RESPECTED MY ABILITIES AND CARED ABOUT ME! IT'S NOT LIKE I !!!!!WANT!!!!!! TO BE THIS WAY!!!"
And... I am going to try to look for a new church. However, I really want to write Pastor a letter to explain why and encourage him to get some education. It is sad. Our daughter was just married there in December...
Thanks again for listening.
poster:Vintagemama
thread:680155
URL: http://www.dr-bob.org/babble/newbs/20060108/msgs/680372.html