Posted by Phil1978 on November 24, 2007, at 17:07:42
Hello everyone,
I really need help. I was with my fiance 7 years I met her when I was 21 and she was my first love. She was older than me by about 1.5 years. We did everything together and she was my life. She loved me so much and all she ever wanted was to marry me. She was always pushing for that. I guess I was unsure if she was the one because I had certain doubts. We would fight a lot about this because I just kept on delaying. I tried to breakup with her to get some space cause I just wanted to date other people since I never had only her. She did not believe in space. She would always cry so much for me not to leave her and so I wouldnt. As a result of the way I felt I did not treat her right. I called her names and made her feel horrible. It got really really bad. I would threaten to break up with her all the time but always come back. Eventually I asked her to marry me even though things were pretty bad. One day after a fight and we had another one of our fake breakups (atleast I thought) she said that enough was enough. I didnt believe her at first and didnt care. Eventually I found out she was talking to some other guy. I was like ok I will do the same and started dating. Now that I have dated I have realized I really love her to death and cant see myself with anyone else but her. I realized that the things that made me unsure before were stupid things that I know would not bother me anymore because no one is perfect. I called her but now she says she hates me for the way I treated her and this new guy treats her right. I am devastated. It has been 5 months and I can't get her out of my mind. I am seeing someone else and I think it makes it worse cause I think of my ex and how great she actually was. I think now I will never find someone as great as she was. I feel I lost the best thing that ever happened to me. I love her so much. She told me even if she breaks up with her new boyfriend she will never come back because I hurt her to much and her family hates me now. I am so deppressed now I feel I really really messed up my life. She says if I call her one more time she is going to the police. Please help me.
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