Posted by footmom on October 29, 2007, at 15:18:28
My sister Kelly, 24 died suddenly from cushing's disease. It was so sudden and now my mom has been rushed to the hospital for a heart attack. I'm so scared that there will be 2 deaths in the family. Now I'm starting to become suicidal. I'm bi-polar and I can't stop obsessing with death. I keep on thinking what is the point. There is no joy in the world. To make matters worse I did not go to the funeral because my dad and I have not talked for 20 years because he abused me for 18 years. I feel bad that I didn't go but I had to make sure that I was going to be ok. Is my dispair about death normal? Any encouraging words would help. I hate the fall.
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