Posted by marfaith on June 7, 2005, at 10:44:08
In reply to Re: How long does a person grieve?, posted by corafree on June 2, 2005, at 11:49:49
> Marfaith: My Dad passed away 15 mos now. I sometimes have huge, big, ugly crys that I swear people could hear through a house and leave me limp. I also have tearing up when something reminds me of him or when something happy happens and I wish he were here experiencing it too. My grief releases in bits and huge chunks and crying to sleep. I don't expect I'll be able to look back and smile for quite a long time. My sister is different. She says memories make her happy. I feel like 'no one has my back anymore'. I'm glad we have each other here. If I can smile in a good ten years, I think I'll be doing good. I'm hypothesizing based upon divorce love losses and the amounts of time there. I have another sister who is more like me ... she asks me if 'he was a dream?' One thing that helps me move forward too, I think, besides the 'letting it out', is when I recognize 'him' in myself, his 'ways w/ the little ones' ... when I'm caring for my little granddaughter. I feel he is really still here inside me. best wishes, cf
Thanks cf. I totally understand what you mean about not being able to look back and smiling for awhile. That's how I feel. I know I need to focus on the people that I love that are here now. This is just really hard.
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