Posted by BrittPark on July 31, 2004, at 15:28:16
A friend of mine tried to kill himself the night before last. He didn't succeed, thank god. Six weeks ago my father suffered a stroke. He's recovering well, and his prognosis is good. I talk to my father every day on the phone, but I'm afraid to visit him. I feel like I can't face the sight of him relatively helpless. I talked to my friend briefly on the phone and he cut me out quickly. It looks like they are going to release him today. I don't think he should leave the hospital. I think he needs to be there and get intensive active care. But I'm afraid to do what I should, which is encourage him as strongly as possible to stay.
The above is kind of garbled but what I'm trying to get at is that I feel guilty for not doing everything that is necessary by my friend and my father. The problem is that I'm just recovering from an episode of Major Depression myself and I'm just getting by by concentrating on my work and watching Buffy The Vampire Slayer on DVD in my free time. I feel trapped by my own incapacity.
Britt
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