Posted by Jai Narayan on February 19, 2004, at 17:52:41
My mother, who played a very pivotal role in my life died last year on Feb. 28th.
The one year marker is coming up.
Her funeral was on April fools day....no one else wanted that day. .My mother was wise, a fool,cleaver, kind, cruel, very witty, quite an artist, insiteful, gone....so gone for most of my life....and in pain.
She spent about half of her life in institutions and the other half being the super mom.she could sew a prom dress, a witty appliqué, cook a wonderful meal and kneel in the street waiting for gods forgiveness.
She would sit with a drink in one hand and a Winston cigarette in the other.
I remember sneaking a butt from her drawer where she always had a carton...we would go out back behind the kitchen and make ourselves sick on the old stale cigarette. We would pretend we were mom with her quick talk and her ready drink.She was sure there was a crew of film makers filming her story. We would joke about going to the kitchen window and stating that the film crew had just run away so she would not see them.
Good old mom, god love you, you were so important in our lives. I hope you are out of the bardo....XOXOXO
poster:Jai Narayan
thread:315813
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