Posted by inanimate peanut on July 8, 2010, at 22:36:54
I grew up Christian and then turned away from God when I was 18. I recently because a Christian again and honestly believed that God was going to heal me probably not to a you'll-never-need-meds-again state but certainly to a live-a-normal-life-with-meds state. My faith has been so weak lately. I think babble is bad for my faith (just me personally-- it's good for my hope in meds in that it starts me thinking about med options but bad for my faith in God as I get obsessed with medication) but that is the least of my problems. My faith that God will heal me is so weak right now, and I don't know how to rebuild it. It's like the thing with the nortriptyline. If it get intercepted at the post office, then it wasn't God's will for me to have it. I should just accept that but I will be absolutely devastated if that happens. The chaplain when I was in the hospital said healing was God giving us what we needed to deal with what we had rather than him taking it away from us. I don't want to believe that. I still want to believe that I can actually be healed and part of me still believes that if I could have enough faith-- the faith of Abraham or Joshua, that I would be healed of this. What do you think? Do you think God can/will heal you of this?
poster:inanimate peanut
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