Posted by shadows721 on June 1, 2004, at 23:11:29
In reply to I think I've lost my faith., posted by Impermanence on May 29, 2004, at 18:49:40
Hi Impermanence,
I know as a kid I simply believed all that I was told. Now, as an adult, I am questioning what is really the truth. I agree with you that many religions have cult like thinking. They sure don't teach one to search for God in their own way.
I don't want to think there is nothing. I want to believe there is something. Sometimes, I think that living in my urban world actually makes me feel more separated from God. I am around "things" and not "living things". I know that I look at myself and others and see there is a creator. I say to myself, "Something created me and those around me." I didn't create myself. I guess there is a religon that believes that, but I don't. I don't think that I have that type of power. Maybe it's when I am not in the man made world that I feel closer to a creator. But, then I think why is the creator allowing all this suffering to continue. I just don't understand all this. I hear what you are saying about the nothingness thing. I sure hope my life wasn't for nothing, but anything is possible.
I feel you too are questioning things. But, I have heard that's what leads to enlightenment. Maybe you are closer to enlightenment than you think.
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