Disclosure?

Posted by Racer on June 16, 2006, at 1:42:43

I'm taking a psych class this summer, and next week we'll be talking about eating disorders. The instructor knows I'm involved with an organization related to EDs, but I have never let on that I had one, and my weight is certainly not low right now. (Although I suspect he may have a clue, based on some of my work in another class.)
Part of me wants to keep my mouth closed, hide, be scared. But another part wants to be OK with disclosing my own disorder. Say something like, "Yes, Anorexia Nervosa is possibly the most stigmatized mental illness, because people think we can Just Eat and be over it, so they blame us for being sick." It's part of who I am, after all, and accepting it should be part of accepting myself.
What's really ironic, is that I'm PROUD of myself when I manage to avoid eating something, or when I can eat half what I am supposed to, without getting "caught." Why is it that I can be proud of my ability to starve myself, and STILL be so ashamed to have it known about me?
Short answer: it's because I'm crazy...

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Disclosure? Racer 6/16/06
Re: Disclosure? » Racer Poet 6/16/06
You nearly made me cry » Poet Racer 6/18/06
Re: You nearly made me cry » Racer Poet 6/18/06
That's a good idea » Poet Racer 6/19/06
Re: That's a good idea » Racer Poet 6/20/06
Oh, can't resist the cliche... » Poet Racer 6/20/06
Re: Disclosure? » Racer ElaineM 6/25/06

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