Posted by Racer on April 23, 2006, at 20:30:23
In reply to Re: How do I get motivated to recover?, posted by need2change on April 23, 2006, at 19:15:50
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> Although CBT has been shown by much research to be very effective for people with anxiety, depression, bulimia, etc., it has not been shown to be very effective in helping people with anorexia.LOL! It's actually been shown, in a couple of studies I've read, to be LESS effective than other models in AN...
I've seen a couple of CBT types, and each time have started restricting more. There's something about the whole, "It's entirely up to you, if you work hard enough, you'll feel great!" thing that just sets me off. And I'd bet you understand that. Several women in the ANAD group I went to had been in CBT and gotten "better" -- only to relapse, badly, not long after ending therapy.
Anyway, you asked about me? What do I need? I need to lose 20 pounds, or I swear I will never leave the house again. Other than that, which probably tells you something about where I am in recovery -- my weight is up, but my brain is still stuck -- I'm middle aged, been seeing my current T for nearly a year now, and really like her. She's CEDS, which was important to me when I was looking. (I'd been trying out Ts from the various ED referral lists, and just NOT having good luck, so my RD told me to look for CEDS, and it has worked out well for me.) I'm also in one of her ED groups, which is very helpful. I'm the only restricter there, though, which is weird. Everyone else talks about the shame involved in being bulimic, in purging, and I can't share that with them. I've still got that "AN made me special, I showed I was stronger, had more willpower, whatever" voice going on inside me. I miss a lot of things about it -- mostly, the energy. I hardly get anything done anymore, and I feel quite ashamed of that.
But, with my weight back, I can do some things I probably couldn't have done before. I've registered for some classes, and am rather enjoying them. (It's weird, though, because everyone is SO much younger than I. The instructor of one class is younger than I am!) It's also a problem, though, because I still get obsessive, and grades are a problem for me... (As in they have to be Good Enough...)
Oh, and I have two cats and am married... (naw, don't read anything into the order there... ;-) )
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