Posted by so on May 18, 2005, at 0:04:20
Several weeks ago, during a particularly dark day of my life, I made the mistake of finding and posting to this forum. The "support" I got included arguments against my well-informed conclusions about my lack of prospects, and eventually disintegrated into offers --- in one case a demand --- that I participate in some sort of asynchronous anonymous electronic affection, which I find to be unacceptable by my standards. For attempting to explain my personal perceptions about this sort of affection, I was accused of claiming my perceptions were instead findings of fact, which I otherwise well know how to phrase as factual findings and not as personal opinions. A lengthy debate ensued in which the doctor and others claimed that a statement about what something is "To me" is not an "I-statement."
I was deemed uncivil and eventually blocked --- for something I had written two days earlier and which the doctor did not cite until after he had interacted with me in subsequent posts.
Whatever. Having been declared uncivil, I demonstrated exactly the character he attributed to me, having found no acceptance here for my more civil nature.
So after blocking me for one week, this doctor claimed he would, for my deliberate offensiveness, double the term of his punitive action, resulting in either a two-week or a three-week sanction. Now, six weeks after his supposed one-week block, he has still failed to unblock the user name I registered. Nor did he reply to my e-mail to him.
Since we are not allowed to discuss here whether doctors are generally trustworthy, or whether we perceive doctors to generally be deserving of trust, I will decline to disclose any perceptions I might hold about why he would, by intent or by neglect, so misalign his words and his deeds. I simply enter this statement of fact as a matter of record. He claimed to have blocked me for two or three weeks, then apparently blocked me indefinately.
I will add that my involvement in this site has not been at all helpful and has probably been harmful to me. Now even finding the site on my history list or in Internet searches evokes feelings of dread, which contribute to a deteriorating condition I might have salvaged had I not let myself get involved here. My perception that administrative action by an admired practitioner is not consistent with the practitioner's administrative declarations seems to support my general sense that no coherent meaning inhabits human behavior. The experience also damaged any likelihood that I would seek professional care for a mental health problem or for any other health concern.
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