Posted by Angel Girl on January 24, 2005, at 14:56:07
I know I said my last post was to be my last but I feel compelled to enter this one.
I'm sorry . . .
for hurting Lou
for feeling hurt because that word is beside my name
for asking that *that* word be removed from the subject line
for causing further friction
for people arguing with each other
for people getting PBCs
for one person (so far) getting blocked
for causing this entire mess
for feeling hurt that Lou could possibly think that there is a chance that I am threatening him or anyone else
for feeling even more hurt that Dr. Bob chooses to leave it there
for talking uncivil to Lou
for talking uncivil with Dr. Bob
for expressing how I feel
for hurting anyone else inadvertantly
for causing some to be annoyed or angered by me
for everythingPlease let it all stop so y'all can go back to being a peaceful community
Above all I have a major issue in life with hurting people, because it hurts me more. I can't live with the fact that I've hurt people or if there should be a reason that I have to intentionally (this happened to me IRL). I have been working on this with my therapist. I can't deal with all this hurt that I have caused here at PB. I apologize to EVERYONE. My therapist has been on vacation for 3 weeks and will be for another 3 weeks, so I haven't had her wisdom and support to deal with any of this. For those of you that don't understand why I am so upset about the word being beside my name, I'm deeply sorry. I'm not writing this post to explain my feelings or my faith. I think I've done far more than enough of that already.
Just know that I'm extremely sorry that I feel the way that I do and that has caused so much discord. PLEASE, move on to something else.
Thank you to those of you who have shown me love and support. I am very grateful but I want y'all to forget me and move on to whatever else you were doing at PB before this happened. I don't like to see all this bickering and I'm sooooo sorry that my feelings caused such pain and disruption.
Please accept my apology. If you choose not to, there are no hard feelings.
Thanks,
AG
poster:Angel Girl
thread:446884
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