Posted by galkeepinon on October 5, 2003, at 23:53:54
In reply to Re: Thank You » galkeepinon, posted by Tabitha on October 5, 2003, at 21:56:05
Tabitha, you are very welcome. I certainly understand now, why suicide is a 'hot-button' issue for you. I am so sorry I made it worse by doing what I did then.
I also did NOT know of the former PB poster who did commit suicide.
Thank you for the wishes, I will tell you that when you apologize to people and really mean it, not only is it is so hard for them, because they were hurt, or angry, or really felt deceived or betrayed, but you don't know how they are going to react. I've gotten a few reactions in my email, positive and negative, and here and all I do is sit back and think, wow, I need to give the other person the right to be angry or hurt, and I count my blessings regarding the ones of support and understanding~that's all I can do. I'm learning that people will not always forgive you, and they have that choice, even for the small mistakes we make in life, and mine wasn't that small. It affected people here and that is why I had to be up front.
Most importantly, and I mean this to everyone, that the remorse I feel now for things that I could have done differently in my relationships, in my personal life AND here on PB is a lot worse then even thinking about repeating them. I do not plan on repeating them. I'm not perfect, and I sure have learned a lot from this.
I have been doing well on my medication, but this 'confession' is not caused by medication, it was caused by a person who realizes that medication can help me obviously, but, I also have to make amends, and not burn bridges in the first place because a person doesn't react the way I want or think he/she should, I can simply *choose* to walk away from relationships and situations that I don't want to be around without 'biting back'. I did that to Nikki and she didn't deserve it.
I don't think that this has been easy for anyone who did know me when I was posting as Krissy, forget about what I feel, I owe it to this board, the people I hurt, directly AND indirectly, and Bob.
Tabitha, I wish you nothing but the best in your life and once again, I'm so sorry.
Ithink I've rambled enough...
Take care of yourself.> Gal, thank you. That meant a lot to me. I think I can understand better now what was happening with you when you did that. It's sad indeed if you thought news of your suicide attempt would not matter to anyone.
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> I lost my mom to suicide-- I tell you this so you'll maybe understand why it is a hot-button issue for me. There was also a Babbler who did commit suicide-- it was verified and someone from here attended her funeral. I was new and was not close to her, but I saw other people go through extreme pain from it. In light of that, a false report of a suicide attempt just seemed so hurtful.
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> Gal, I admire your courage for owning your past identity. Best wishes on your attempts to mend things with people. You have every right to be here.
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