Posted by Meltingpot on February 21, 2016, at 11:45:43
Hi,
I'm just wondering if people can relate to this. Medication does help me but nowhere near as much as it did in my 20s when I felt as though I was completed cured and that depression was just a thing associated with my youth and not having a purpose etc.
Since 35 I've had horrible experiences with depression, suicidal thoughts, anxiety etc and the drugs that took me to heaven in my 20s seemed to take me to hell instead.
I am grateful for the medication I take, the Seroxat and the Zyprexa but I've never really felt cured this time. I'm still aware that this thing is still lurking underneath.
I want to get hold of Nembutal as I want it there as an option should I ever feel that low and nothing was helping. It may sound ungrateful but I want the reassurance of knowing that if ever things got that bad again I have the option of a quick and peaceful death.
I'm just wondering if anyone can relate to this.
Denise
poster:Meltingpot
thread:1086353
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