Posted by b2chica on December 31, 2014, at 18:59:01
it seems my biggest trouble always comes back to my DH. i really want this marriage to make it... but sometimes i wonder. and i'm scared financially.
however, i also know that its not all him.
part of me wnts to just stop all my meds. ... just stop them all.
as some people on this site i'm sure would be happy to hear that.
but my purpose would not be to become med free. it because i know that it would become so bad that there would be no other option and i would undoubtedly go through with .... the enevitable.im just in a dark place. and the worst thing for me right now is to be around people... my DH has invited about 20 people over tonight. so here i am, hiding behind my bed in the dark typing to what i feel like are the only true friends in the world i have.
so thank you for those that help on this site.
-b"What is madness, but nobility of soul at odds with circumstance.
The day is on Fire, and i know the purity of pure despair."
Theodore Roethke
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