Posted by zonked on August 10, 2013, at 13:07:27
Hi..
I'm alive, but just barely .. things had been going so well for me; until some relationship crap ... happened.. last week, and I tried to kill myself with heroin... I am not a heroin addict, I have dabbled with it occasionally (go figure! I tried it after moving to Seattle, how ridiculous) ..
It didn't work; I've lost my place to live + am in a crisis facility now.
This isn't depression - normal people don't try to kill themselves over a loss like that, I guess.
I'm not borderline, I don't meet the full criteria, I don't know *what* I am, but I do know I'm extra sensitive and .. sh*t. I nailed the depression part, but I think due to how I was raised I have some other fish to fry.
I am trying, desperately, to get counseling, and that will involve proving that I've met my Medicaid spend/down (don't ask. really. I had NO medicaid spend/down in California, but because I get no SSI dollars in Washington I have to prove to the state, quarterly, that I am sick enough to warrant their dollars. Counseling is a Medicaid benefit, not a Medicare benefit.) - and facing that I am really not healthy yet.
I dunno what to do. I turn here when I have no hope, and I've found better support here than I have in real life sometimes.
Bah.
-z
poster:zonked
thread:1048736
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