Posted by rjlockhart37 on January 20, 2013, at 23:57:20
so finally i can post what im thinking and not drive myself crazy because i can't get it out of my mind....
like i said before in a post...its hard to choose love over hate....paticually with my brother they used make fun of me, not invite me to events.....i mean you can see where all this hate surfaced...and then when i confrount them....or give any implication of hatred...i get labeled evil....im not evil....its cause and effect situation....but i can't just sit here and mop and pity everything...move on, make my last descions of what i want to do with my life without them there....and paticulary feeling the hate makes me feel strong....love makes me feel moppy, sentinmental, vunerable, i can't do it....i've gotta repress this stupid sentimental stuff....
just tell me one thing.....what has love have a good side in this situation...and don't me forgiveness is the awnser...every where i go, i hear that and i wanna throw up in my mouth everytime i hear it....disgusts me
anything?
r
not a scholar but understand distress
Med:
Prozac 60mg
Lamictal 200mg
Zyprexa 20mg
Nuvigil 250mg
encourage you to avoid false beliefs
poster:rjlockhart37
thread:1035924
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