Posted by Prefect on September 3, 2012, at 21:19:07
In reply to THE MONSTER HAS AWAKENED..., posted by Prefect on September 1, 2012, at 11:47:53
A mess, Phillipa, as in interfering with your daily function? If that's true, that must be tough, cos it sounds like you've tried different meds and still haven't found a "compromise"?
What I mean by "compromise" is what I had before this relapse. I haven't been healthy in the head since 27 (this crap runs in my mother's side of the family...Thanks Ma...), but people can't tell. I'm successful in most avenues in life but sometimes feel like a phony, because, I think if only people knew how really insane I am, and what sort of odd thoughts I have when I'm placed in an anxiety provoking situation...Real anxiety feels like insanity to me; it's not just fear...it's odd thoughts, make you want to run for shelter, dig up dirt and bury yourself...But I love life, and the level I've been functioning past few years. I don't want to lose that. That's the compromise. I'll be out there reclaiming territory and telling the bastard to go to hell...This place is mine.
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