Posted by g_g_g_unit on September 5, 2011, at 8:35:23
In reply to Re: what keeps you alive? » g_g_g_unit, posted by larryhoover on September 4, 2011, at 10:43:27
Thanks for all your responses and your willingness to open up on such a difficult issue. Likewise, it's hope that keeps me alive, but as I get older, I have to ask - hope for what? I know I'm only 25 (nearly 26), but I suffer from severe OCD, which obliterates any quality-of-life I might hope for, and am also lucky enough to have ADD. Underneath that, I know there's a gifted, interesting self with something to contribute, but I only got to see small flashes of that person before everything came crashing down at 22. As I spend more and more of my adult life 'sick', missing out on vital experiences (relationships, etc.), hope becomes more and more abstract because all I'm holding onto is that figurative possibility of something I saw in myself. Sometimes I think of myself in terms of a prisoner awaiting freedom from a long sentence, and gain strength from the thought of how unspeakably relieved I'd be when this nightmare is over, that maybe I could start again in my 30s, 40s, whatever .. but I admit that's a little tenuous ..
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