Posted by B2chica on August 5, 2011, at 14:16:33
i had pdoc appt this morning. i dislike morning appt first of all because i'm always better in the morning and can seem quite good. my downward always kick in between 11am and 1pm and carry on through the night.
ANYWAY...
he didnt even mention the deplin this time and i forgot to ask.
he at first mentioned MOAI, and i started commenting on dietary restrictions and blah blah...we got to talking more and i was mentioning anything that could be stressful. i mentioned my neice having 'boyfriend' issues...due to that ONE issue, and the fact that "though i may be tearful and apathetic to things" he now believes all of my symptoms are psychological...and will not be affected by medications...
he told me to make sure and exercise 5-6 days a week (which i did ALL of fricken July) and to limit my contact with niece and her issues, since i identify too much with her.ok..so im writing it probably harsher than he said it. he's very nice, and its possible he may be right... BUT
1. i cant just stop listening to my niece we have a close relationship, she's almost like a very close friend. we talk, we watch movies together, she lived with us for a few months while she was looking for an apt? we grew closer. and i already limit our conversations about problems...she's very understanding about that.
2. yes i have other stress but my life will always contain stress.
3. i'm still crying every day.
4. i'm still lethargic and apathetic every day.
5. he was very jockular today and i just couldnt seem to deal so i did what i always do...take on the personality of the person i'm around...i started joking too.i cant help it. if i pick up on people invalidation my feelings or not taking me too seriously i clam up...i cover...even though i've been seeing this guy for years.
thats the disadvantage of only seeing someone for a little while and not frequently. its easy to cover.************************************
so what do i even do? just make an appt for two weeks since i can always cancel if he happens to be right.do i wait longer? shorter?
do i push for a med?the bad part is if he really wants to try an MOAI i know from this site i'll have to first get off my meds and then WAIT what 14 days! till i can even start that, let alone till it works. we're looking at 2 months of getting worse if its for real.
im just confused, upset, partly agree with him...scared.-i just want to make a nice little bed in my closet and hold out there till next year...
b2c
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