Posted by floatingbridge on May 30, 2011, at 20:26:52
Not suicidal. Like need convincing life is worth living. Not for the big rock candy mountain. Just to feel peace.
I am always shaking my p*m-p*ms. Yeah go! Start that med, you'll feel better tomorrow, here, let me send you a hug.
I mean those things. I did. Life touches me in it's beauty and terror. I can't
touch it back lately. I feel like Santa Claus has lost my address.One of the best conversations was being able to discuss my ambivalence towards life. I felt understood. She didn't convince me.
I'm not suicidal. I do experience the seduction of ambivalence. It's easy, and I'm tired.
Anyone else? At least I Don't have to feel alone.
* and whoever gazes at the stars will never again be quite alone...
c-ptsd & attendant health concerns
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