Posted by B2chica on April 11, 2011, at 13:56:25
In reply to Re: Perphenazine, PLease help...freaking out » Zyprexa, posted by SLS on April 11, 2011, at 13:21:45
im just now feeling effects of 900mg of gabapentin. i am much calmer and can think more rationally. and i think i can take the perphenazine if i can find it.
my last known dx was psychotic depression.
i have had dx of bipolar in the past but i never get euphoric. i get very aggitated and active negativity toward myself. MAJOR suicidal ideation. and then theres my little illusions (no hallucinations mind you) :)
but i see shadows and things that look like people/s;irits like whitewashed, i see bugs and moving things and i have auditory illusions mostly mixed in the sounds of other things. i often hear voices but they are mostly what i call 'cafeteria noise'. and the odd sounds here and there and old time radios. but thats not every day. and even if they scare me sometimes, i'm aware that they are not real.zyprexa always works for me. but since my AD hadn't kicked in they had to up zyprexa to 10, thus gaining 25lbs.
i could go back to 5 but i'm having difficulty (as mentioned) taking it. my pdoc said to try perphenazine as it is supposed to be weight neutral.
i said ok. but i might have trouble taking it as well.when i texted him today he approved more gabapentin and said my physcial response is expected and that i need to get on med as soon as available. lBut thats the thing, none of the pharmacies had it. it had to be ordered...i STILL haven't heard from them. is that weird? i feel like someone is telling me i shouldn't take it.
then just take the zyprexa right? i dont know why i cant.
i just cant.
it makes me sad and scared...but i cant.
i want too...but i cant. i'm afraid of it...and i dont know why.i
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