Posted by Cydnie on January 13, 2011, at 12:48:41
My therapist told me today she thinks my side effects from my medications are all in my head and that if she read about every medication she was going to take, she would think "every ache and pain" was from her med. This was after she talked to my pdoc who told me I research everything (he never acted as though it was an insult, actually told me he never knew about a med until I told him about it, and now uses it with other patients). I went to the ER after a reaction to a medication where I was unable to walk, had an incredible amount of blood loss, was stuttering, had amnesia. The ER doc was looking to see if it was a brain aneurysm, and told my husband my eyes were dilated. I told my therapist I would have amazing body control if I could dilate my eyes, and fooled a team of ER docs. She told me she doesn't think she can do anything to help me anymore, and this is after losing my pdoc, and having suicidal thoughts over the holiday. I feel like I am losing everything every time I turn around. I can't seem to hang on to any helpful resource, like the universe is screaming, give up! I'm desperate, scared, and am losing everyone, and losing faith in everything, and am so alone. Why does it seem like when it can't get worse, we all know what happens then. I am revolving in a crisis, and I just want to get out. I hate where I am, I hate this. I feel nuts. I'm losing it. She acted like I was pathetic and had the tools to heal myself in my hands, just take the pristiq like he told you, stop acting like a victim! It made me go up and down like never before, but she thinks it's from reading too much? Now she won't treat me anymore, because I won't help myself? i thought I was trying to help myself by seeing a therapist, and a pdoc, and other things I sought out. But she gives up, like I'm a lost cause. I feel it.
poster:Cydnie
thread:976692
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