Posted by Amelia_in_StPaul on April 13, 2009, at 17:31:17
In reply to Re: Med Free- Relapse » johnj1, posted by sowhysosad on April 13, 2009, at 17:16:50
I just got dx'ed with OCD too, last January. Please don't think you are a failure for not doing well off meds. Your biology is not of your making; you have done nothing wrong. I too tried to go off of meds and only made it through 9 months. Then anxiety hit, and OCD. I cried and cried to think of having to go back on the drug merry-go-round but I felt like I was losing my mind. I relate so well to what you are experiencing, including the guilt and self-blame. But please, don't go there. Your biology is not your fault. Remember that. And too, you already have a leg up on OCD because you realize what it is; as well, you are already doing the right things self-care wise. Bravo for that! Now you just need to take care of yourself with medication and therapy (for OCD therapy works best, always with meds as an adjunct).
> Can really sympathise John. I'm weaning off an AD at the moment and having a pretty bad time.
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> The fact that OCD is part of your issues is a major clue that brain serotonin is your issue. It's almost certainly an imbalance that you can't help or "think" away, so don't beat yourself up.
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> Let us know how you get on.
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> > Man, med free for about 1 year and 9 months. Some very bad times and some very good times. Now, things are gettng worse, OCD, anxiety, insomnia. I feel like a failure. I really have tried wonder why I can't think myself out of this. Isn't it our thoughts that cause this? Not sure what to do.... Started with anxiety and then OCD reared it's ugly head. I ruminate hours a day. Sh*t, I hate this.
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