Posted by Rollercoaster1121 on June 10, 2008, at 11:58:26
I have a question about Effexor and Bipolar. I believe I was misdiagnosed or possibly underdiagnosed with OCD. Are there any cases of Bipolar being concurrent with OCD? I ask, because I was placed on Effexor for the OCD, and after the worst withdrawal imaginable, I sort of "came to my senses" 2000 miles away after impulsively moving from Colorado to Florida. I have never acted this way before except one other time when i was placed on Wellbutrin to help me stop smoking. (I ended up in New Orleans from St. Louis) I have never been diagnosed with bipolar. I think this is extremely disruptive. I often feel as if my emotions are pulled by invisible strings. Often, they go opposite to my intentions and I am accused of being a drama queen which i understand, because i look like one, but my intentions are simply to contain runaway emotion. I feel like a marrionette. I have gone to doctor after doctor and they tell me that "women are emotional", that there is nothing wrong with me. I know there is something wrong. It feels like my life is being lived by someone else! I am somewhere in my head going along for the ride. It is no fun. I can see it bothers people, sometimes hurts them. Every time I ask for help I am told I am playing games, and I am not! I am desperately seeking help! I think I have Cyclothymia/Bipolar II. I don't know how to articulate these symptoms or something because people keep saying I am fine, I'm just a jerk, except for my roomate who agrees I do not mean to be dramatic, I just seem out of control of my emotional level. I can't stop it! Lately I have been having a depressive episode that looks like agoraphobia. But it's not that I am afraid to leave the house as much as I am afraid of who I will run into and how I will react. I can't keep a job because of emotional outbursts, that I agree, are over the top. Later, on reflection I am ashamed and embarrassed that I have acted in such a way. I have to get a grip on this! Does anyone have any advice or feedback? I don't even know how to start. I have no insurance, and just found out that unless I have a child with me I do not qualify for medicaid. Does this mean that there is no help available? Please help me with information if you can.
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