Posted by Horned One on June 9, 2008, at 17:41:35
In reply to Doc thinks there's nothing wrong with me, posted by West on June 9, 2008, at 16:18:50
>He asked why i didn't get out there and do stuff instead of reading about and asking for drugs. That was pretty hurtful.
I know, they don't seem to realise that we spend most of our days researching, then hoping and praying we'll get what we need at the next appointment. I stand accused of having 'an unhealthy obsession with psychopharmacology' by Dr. Walker, and just last week my social worker asked if 'thought I had a medication addiction' because 'whenever there's a dip in your mood you immediately think of a pharmocalogical solution'. I don't, but over the last few weeks my mood just went into freefall, so I asked very urgently for the antidepressant I've been waiting for since January. I know what you mean about '*if* you get an antidepressant when you see the pdoc. I've been waiting for six months for an antidepressant (so not exactly demanding an quick fix here), and I think the problem is I've just lost all hope of getting one. I'm crying out for help and just keep getting doors slammed in my face. Maybe I'll get one this time next year, but who know's what state I'll be in then? Maybe I'll be manic? If so I'll just have to stockpile it for when I need it next. There's no guaruntee of getting the treatment you need when you need it on the NHS. It needn't be this way though.
>Why not actually TRY and HELP make people's live's worth living ?
Do you ever wonder why they went in for that career? I'm getting cynical that the majority really want to help people. It's all about power and control. That comes before suffering.
>Actually i don't know if i am really depressed and now i'm starting to think maybe he's right
Dr. Walker discharged me from secondary psychiatric services in 2006, claiming that 'I had an unhealthy obsession with psychopharmacology' i.e. I'm a hypochondriac and a malingerer. I sort of began to accept that over time, but last December I was sectioned under the mental health act for a manic episode, which I thought proved for all time that I had a real mental illness, but no. By rights my diagnosis should be Bipolar I, or even Schizoaffective Disorder, but I don't know if I actualy have a diagnosis. They're playing this trendy, progressive 'I don't want to label you with an illness' game here. He had no qualms about labelling me with borderline personality disorder though.
Trust your own instincts. You live with your illness, and you almost certainly know more about it than your doctor does.
-Horny
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