Posted by Fivefires on August 23, 2007, at 13:14:33
In reply to Getting OFF the meds, Anyone else doing it?, posted by BenzosSSRIsohMY! on August 22, 2007, at 17:08:19
Oh dear, just lost a long response to u! :(
Tried in past, but I think I may be 'deeper in the grasp this vicious cycle' and I wish I'd done what you're doing, and stayed that way, after 14yrs.
Wanted to say, altho' your condition prior to beginning these meds is a consideration, 14yrs is not a terribly long time, especially when compared to 30yrs on these, so maybe this could be to your advantage. If u were feeling bad becuz' of 'a life event' b4 beginning SSRI/benzo, this may be to your advantage as well.
I'm not saying this won't be uncomfortable, maybe just a little less. I had nearly a 30yr hx and needed detox w/ medical doctor monitoring.
U have an opportunity to get out now, before you get to where I am, feeling 'damaged even further', feeling 'dependency', and having spent too many years in unhappiness.
The cal:mag, 2:1, alternative suggestion is a great one. (I believe I have the ratio correct. Will some1 correct if wrong pls?) I have Country Life Mag Caps 300 mg w/ silica and could feel immediate relief. Also, taurine, a white powder you can purchase at a health food store, a tspfull really helps anxiety. See the alternative board, or maybe you've already posted there.
Get out of the trap and off the benzos before you have no other answer. I am alone. I've missed some experiences of happiness. When I lump this all together, my self-esteem is low. This low self-esteem doesn't lend me to having a lot of intestinal fortitude, and I think this is what it takes to get off nasty drugs and instead help yourself via natural substances.
I'm not sure if I've said enuf' or spoken anything unclearly, but pls feel free babblemail me if so. I just began a new med (See!) yesterday and I'm feeling a little 'out of body' sort of thing. I've never been psychotic, but the pressures in my life currently have led to quit complaining about my fear of a certain type of drug and give it a try.
Don't 'lose your life to these nasty drugs' as I have. If u stay on the road you're on, it's likely people will judge you. (This is how I feel about myself. I think I'm a failure and a disappointment to my fam' of origin. They invalidate me. They're coming close to pushing me out of the family. (A mental illness, and when I say this I'm not saying you have a mental illness, but rather I think I've suffered some damage as a result of meds for so many years. Anyway, mental illness is not visible and you can talk until you've lost your voice and still not convince a person 'you thought loved you unconditionally' you are ill.)
Guess what? Think I found some of the post I thought deleted. Sorry but maybe I said something worth adding so here's more as follow:
Quitting and using alternatives and hooking up w/ others who've done the same could very well allow you to come back to the real world you remember.
I'm not saying there won't be any discomfort obviously. And, there will be stressors in your life in the future, but w/ the knowledge of what you're in right now, I don't think you'd choose this door again.
I'm not sure you need this kind of support, but thought I'd throw it out here for u to think about.
Oh, and b4 deleted, the mag/calcium is an issue you shouldn't deny yourself. I began Country Life Mag Caps (as mag oxide, aspartate, citrate, alpha-ketoglutarate, taurinate) 300mg w/ silica. They are preservative free, vegetarian capsules. The cal/mag ratio is 2:1 I believe and hope some1 will correct me if I'm wrong. This alternative wasn't expensive and is great. I could feel it working right away. My problem is I don't have in my traits, at least not now, 'a lot of intestinal fortitude', especially when my self-esteem is as low as it is at this particular time. I broke up w/ a man I'd been seeing 13yrs. I need to set this bottle of magnesium and get my calcium and put them somewhere I'll trip over them or something!(?)
Website for mag caps is country-life.com, but found at a local private health food store.
Don't want your thread moved to Alternative, so won't mention this any further. Feel free to babble if u wish.
For me, SSRIs 'increase' my level of anxiety. Maybe others have shared this same occurrence w/ you.
bestwishes, 5f
ps: Sorry about losing the psot and then I think maybe finding it down here at the bottom. Don't mean to waste your time.
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